I am so heavily immersed in the stand up world right now. Being unemployed and going to school, I should be more focused on school. I am focused in my academics but I feel young again. I feel like that kid in class dreaming of making it to the NBA, or jamming to the heaviest rock music in a sold out stadium. In the ave I currently find myself, I am a complete loser with no job and by most peoples views a stupid choice to follow my dreams of comedy.
Weather it was starting band, writing my own music, I just couldn't see myself finding the hunger to invest that much time. I love to draw and have done so since I was a child. Attending the art institute was an amazing experience, but again, the drive and passion just weren't strong enough for me to fight through the rough periiods. Stand up comedy is the only art form within me where It is just me. Seeking that instant gratification from the audience is something i never did experience in music. I Can see tears in peoples eyes as I sang or verbal acknowledgment, but it isn't instant. drawing was instant when I can see the person react as my drawing comes to life. If I'm drawing on my own then i have to wait. In stand up it's something I cannot explain. Just seeing and hearing the crowd laugh is so rewarding...
Stand up obviously is much different than telling jokes to my friends or co workers by the water cooler but it is a challenge I enjoy. I am simultaneously working on writing better structured jokes and now I am throwing in more of that performance energy I have always been known for but just couldn't translate on to the stage. Up until this wee, my performances have felt more rehearsed and mechanical. I took the advice from a very funny comedian who I had the honor of working with and realized I need to step out of my comfort zone.
My Sunday night show notes showed me screwing up several jokes but the new found extra that I brought that night helped me recover and add new punches to my set.
What imm tryim to say is... I love stand up comedy... Come catch me sometime.
